Anxiety vs. Big God

June 22nd is getting closer! My support letters have gone out and I've gotten responses from several people. We baked about every kind of dessert for Saturday night's "Coffeehouse," a variety show for CCF's Parent's Weekend, and asked for donations for the trip. It was encouraging to have a couple people say they were sending financial support. Overall, though, this process has been terrifying. I am still waiting for $1,895 in the next two weeks and $3,295 before the end of May. Very little money has come in so far.

I was telling my roommates last night that this semester has been one of learning for the seven thousandth time what it means to trust God. I'm graduating in May and have had to be very flexible about money for graduate school, roommates for an apartment, and the decision of where I should be in the fall. These things have definitely given me some real anxiety and feel pretty small, but in many ways, they've been a reminder of how faithful the Lord has been in the past and how he will continue to be so next year. 

Raising money for a trip to Kenya seems totally disconnected from this trust in my mind! The idea of trusting God to bring in the money has felt pretty elusive. So all I've been able to do is ask God for more faith and ask him to provide. I will get to see his faithfulness regardless of the outcome, either in Kenya or in the U.S., wherever he puts me. God is BIG. He is so capable of pouring out all the funding we need or keeping me here for other reasons. He is all knowing and has designed this summer with my good and his glory in mind. He knows what the people of Elangata Enterit need and how our group will work together. He is so much bigger than me. So I can rest in him.

Our team is now finalized and we have been enjoying getting to know each other and talking about details of the trip, from the kinds of spiders we should expect to how the village views Jesus. I'm so looking forward to getting to know this group better and sharing some incredible experiences together.

Please pray that God will bring peace about raising support, that I will grow in faith from this process, and that he will provide the funds to send our team if that's his will. Pray that our hearts would be prepared for his plan and open to glorifying him in whatever capacity he chooses. Pray for the boys, girls, and teachers in Elangata Enterit, that they would continue to witness his faithfulness to their village and that they would have food, clean water, and a quality education. Pray that his name would be made known there as Savior and Lord.